My life was a disaster. I was ruining it left and right with my irresponsibility and inability to care anymore. I was barely surviving for years. I was faking it, even to myself. I was lying to myself when I said I was fine, there wasn't a problem. There were in fact lots of problems… Continue reading Alcohol Lied To Me.
Tag: mentalhealth
The Shot That Changed Me.
Three years ago, I clocked out of work, took a very large shot of vodka, walked out the door, and drove home. Only I didn’t make it home. At least not until several hours later, after a pit stop at the police station. This wasn’t my first time being pulled over; I decided to refuse… Continue reading The Shot That Changed Me.
Growth in Healing.
The last two days I have been dealing with my car not starting in the freezing temperatures. This caused me to be late to work one day and needing to be driven to work by my parents both days. It is in moments like this that I am able to see how far I have… Continue reading Growth in Healing.
Self-Sabotage.
If there is one thing that I have been really good at my whole life, it is sabotaging myself. For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with self-sabotaging behaviors. Self-sabotage is when we do certain behaviors that were adaptive in a former context, such as during childhood or a traumatic or stressful… Continue reading Self-Sabotage.
Hard Days
The last two days have been hard. I have hated myself, screamed it at myself in the mirror followed by a barrage of insults. This always ends with crying, because it hurts. It hurts when I am so mean to myself and I just can't seem to stop. It is in these moments, and these… Continue reading Hard Days
Brittany Netzband 